i just need space...to vent..because yes! i'm dulan...i'm busy... and i'm damn stress... please be kind to leave me alone?

i have lots of things to do...im not that GOOD to have all the benefits? fabrication or CNC... IM NOT FREE!!!

sometime i really wonder the unrevealed story behind our backs... arrows? backstage stories?
why do they get all this? but not me? i'm that lousy? then why am i still a 3 pointer...fuck!!!

or...are they just like models...got fuck and get all the job done? so a sin to born fat or ugly...hello mr 숏다리 u are old already...please dun try to taste the beauty's meat or sth?

dun try to act as if u are fair...only blinds cant see your act... your wife dun satisfy you enuff??

fine...

DUN EVER COMPARE... cause only people who are not good enuff do comparisons...

so you are not that good...cut all the act to be kind to people...reveal your damn attitude out lah...people...do your work...dun push around like nobody business...not everyone is as free as you... dun go about telling people how busy or stress you ARE...or show people how much things you hab done...cause we just know...YOU DID NOTHING!!! stop acting and get your butts off the comfort zone of pushing responsibilty...

you are given work to fulfil and not pushing...

dun lie to people that it is nice when actually u noe how bad it is... so this is how u feel proud of yourselves that you can do it? just bullshit...face the truth...it just that you cant face the reality...and just fuck off....

broke my toughest record...is to bring out my list of haters which is stack with dust and spidy webs...

my apology....because i really need to vent....

with love still~
akemi

it is just not my day?

im stressed~ real stressed... i graduated but it does not mean that everything ended...like i thought it will be going at a slower pace...

unfairness? bias? beauty and hardworking?

hmmm... only those involved know about it..but is it a crime to be less attractive? crime to be hardworking?

slowly..the effort of work will vanish~

because it isn't that important after all...

learn the beauty to forgive and take...

nothing is more important than them...as long as they were healthy and by my side... i don't mind what is the politics about...

age is just a number... a number that i'm afraid of..a number that i never know i will be scared of...hoping the time just stop...stop at this part of my life... and not pulling them away from me...i will be happy...

if you are rich doesnt mean you will be happy...
if you have the beauty..dosen't mean you will be happy...
if you have the brain..dosen't mean you will be happy too..

but with them around..just them..it will be my happiest time ever...

please stay by me forever..don't ever leave me alone....

with love,
akemi

denise was trying to sent some photos to me through msn...and....

kaoZ... so big lah...haha...anyway cause both of us are using th latest msn and this is what it will be showing...so funny can~ lol

anyway...don't believe i really graduated? haha... see... the evidents...


lol...crazy stuff we did before my napfa test...lol...wearing dust coat and cardboard square hat with a rod container...lol..

my napfa was a shit...and hey dear dear..i pass all for..silver de leh..just because my damn 2.4km that screw me up..and im going to retake...tmd..lol..

im so happy lah...moove doing one of my model for me..and doing it 2 sets.. most importantly it for FREE!!! haha..cause they own me one...lol...not bad hur....lol...

that means i only have to work on just one of my model..and i do not have a hole in my pocket to look for model maker to do my lighting project...yeh!!!

thats all...

with love,
akemi

see~ im really busy recently....hmmm... namecard~ portfolio...stickers and badge design...and model...its killing me now...all have to rush..and know what its only 18 days left to our grad show...excited and stressed kind of feelings how would people who are not involved be able to feel? lol...

but no matter how... i still have my fav biscuit beside me..love them...oh sweetie~hehe..



with love,
akemi

its valentines' day!! <3 <3

first time with dear dear and made him his favourite pineapple tarts...lol...special wor...hahahaha...

its in heart shaped..pineapple fillings are hard to prepare and hard to form...lol...better appreciate it..humf~ lol...


went ice skating with ting and kenny...lol...so long after i skated...obviously i forgotten how...and i grapped him for the whole session...lol...muscle aching especially the arm that i grapped him...lol... (cus i uses too much strength i guess... Xp) enjoy that day with you my dear~ <3 happy valentine's day!!!

with love,
akemi

meeting postponed till today...and we went for photoshoot for grad book...hmmm...this grad show was really everything by ourselves..our individual picture were taken by my classmates in studio..and now the group photo too...cool isn't it? no professional photographers...but believe me they din a very good job...nice picture taken... =)

when we are going to take picture at the NYP logo.. (the big big logo at the slope of the hill if some of you ever pass by my school) that was tedious....~

trying to squeeze everyone in the "cargo" lift~

our passion for ID that we even carry that with us along... double tedious...

but in exchange we got really cool pictures that not everyone will have~

imagine how big that NYP logo is...


cool picture taking session afterall... enjoy =)

with love,
akemi

I GRADUATED!!!!!

SOOOOOOO happy can~
3 years of diploma study just ended with a good ending which i can say?
hmmmm...thinking back when im trying to get to design school till now...its really fast to end now...but worth it...because i just love designing...

year 1 is when all our brain are so fresh ad new...all the hardwork and even more sleepless nights...hmmm...can see how hardworking we are.... lol... all the paying and paying...all the struggling...

year 2 slack a bit? but still sleepless nights... more graphics works for me? took part in compeition for graphics but hey wait...i thought i love furniture design more??? Xp

year 3 is the final year...the slackest of all...but also the most stress year... worried of not able to graduate? and also fun time for attachment at moove...just love year 3 the most... also got to know the new lec which is my supervisor...SCOTT LEE HAE SEUNG!!! wow~ can say learn quite alot from him..nice lec afterall and funny still thou he is a korean~ lol...

now time to brush up portfolio...namecard...model~ final part of poly life...enjoy it before facing the cruelity in the reality world....arrowing over the heads...lol...

with love,
akemi

its monday!!! tiring day...hmm...sleepless night this few days because...i'm graduating on wednesday!!!! did not sleep at all man..and i went to surprise dear dear..waited for him below his blk in the early morning as he is reservicing~ lol...


really sleepy when in school at the same time its denise big 2 birthday.... happy birthday gal!!!


thats all for monday~

with love,
akemi

its the last day of chinese new year...this year is really becoming quieter.. no festive mood at all...too much things to do i think? lol...

but something different today... first time went to my ex boss and ex lady boss house...hmmm...work for them for few years but yet to go to their so called "warehouse" home that is full of clocks and watches...lol...

before entering their house me and my colleague were still thinking "do we need to push away boxes when we walk in?" or " are we seating on the cartons of boxes?" lol...weird~

but indeed it is stock up with boxes...aiya~ forgotten to take a pic...lol...

anyway....uncle treated us nice food at the old place again...its nice and tend by his friend at sembawang.... yummy.... and went back their house to pre-celebrate his birthday~

his birthday is on 12 feb~ if im not wrong? his first birthday cake~ lol


his son and lady boss=>aunty ~

their so called " daughters" lol... hmmm...from the pic...i really saw how much i had grown...omg...its really too late to wake up and go on diet.... sad~ =(

going back to stress up again... still have moove work to do...hmmm...

updates of my work:
- product renderings for my grad book
- wed final crit= graduating!!!!
- moove career fair booth at jurong int and also suntec = also my first attempt to exhibition design... good news it will confirm be out...check it out man~ but i don't quite like it thou...lol...
career fair @ suntec : 20 - 22 mar
career fair @ jurong int : end of feb?


with love,
akemi

a months time and i will be graduating... conflicts, unhappiness among the class...

it doesn't look like the past when everyone can communicate well and gather together..is it because everyone were stressed up during this very critical moments or is it this is each and everyone true self that had been hiding ?

hmmm.... whats is the best choice for us to stop? i think is communication and updates... not reasoning follow by reasoning...

conflicts because of disagreements... solve it?

been neutral of these while... don't involve me and i don't involve you... but recently...something happened and i don't think they made the right choice... even though it's close case and final...

guess my poly mates should knew what happen...

and i just wanna express again... not because of hard feelings nor i just help a little and yet i cant get the $25... is not about the amount but is about why it could or must be divided to those who prepared and not the whole class... why not everyone pay the same amount and use it like an additional amount? because of crediting? because of hard work?

if that is the way everyone should see, then people doing grad book will have more pages? people doing video will only have their profiles? people doing web page will only have their work? people doing on exhibition will only have their spaces?

well people will start gossiping again..i din help at all why am i here bullshitting so much...is not that i do not wanna help...i have the heart to help way from the start...but because of communication again? connection cut off? not informed? changes here and there? i became no where?

the problem start way long ago...dragging all the way and like a snow ball piling up and thicken...kind of like war internally...

hmmm... but really disappointed from the time when i return from attachment and seen the changes till now... we could not actually know how to communicate with each other....

someone said before : designer could not communicate with each other... really is this case?

again...no hard feelings...just what i feel...do not get offended...



with love,
akemi

i did a new look!!!! by calvin my hairstylist aka fiona fren's bro...not bad..can control my super naughty hair...lol....

no more wild and messed up hair..

before leaving for the hairdo...so messy rite? as usual~ =(

pardon me for the blurness...but look at it..so demure..lol... shu nv leh....i rebonded my hair...neated now..at least no damaged hair flying out now..lol...even thou i used hair mask like everyday? haha...

a better one... nice? for now its still flat and so not me...wait awhile more till it become more bom will be better...lol....

with love,
akemi

well well~ lol my daddy's birthday celebration on 25th dec 2008~ lol... my family can be fun too~ with such a playful parents..hehe...should feel happy and lucky thou~

bought a birthday cake for him~ celebration start after a nice family dinner..hmmm...do not have a family dinner for long le... =)

my daddy is so playful... =_= what he did when i said " smile leh~ and lower down~"

he is the most devoted guy i ever seen...he dote her alot regardless of her bad temper... ooopss..and i mean it oh...hope u are like my daddy~ lol..Xp

how lovely they are...after like 27 years of marriage!!! envy~

love them all..love family gathering!!! is when i felt love and warmth with them around...fun and playful..


p.s. i tink i shld slowly update those past event since i got back my card reader cus there are too much already...hmmm...

with love,
akemi

well... im so sorry for not updating..haha...

really busy and lotsa updates..but...the pictures are not able to upload yet due to my dear friend..ting!!!!where is my card reader!!!!

haha...

lots of pictures and updates like:
-mini golf trip
-zoo trip
-night safari
-christmas celebration
-science center
-daddy birthday celebration
-bintan trip
-grad pictures
-our 1st mth celebration
- and others misc pic...

wow!!! thats alot...hmmm...

but now...recently...i'm really busy...just did a mid crit for my last school project...
ideas came by like 2 days before my mid crit and i thought it will be a trash...
but....it ended up in a good way instead...love the concept...and the lectures have no negative remarks...good hur~

now rushing for pboard for our UNIT 09 website...and....recently also did a workshop with PHILIPS...hmmm...very good experience thou...caspier is a very cute ang moh guy..very funny...and tall...2.0m leh...omg...but fun with them for the past 2 days...haha..and also went to the Cerebral Pulsy Center at Pasir Ris for some "research"...

saw those kids who suffer from cerebral pulsy...felt heart pain...and sad...they were actually or in fact they were alot better then us..people who look perfect...straightforward...honest...defintely not a hypocrite... seeing them makes me think of how well being i am? and also how unfortunate i am to have or might have friends that take advantage of me? kind of "acting"?? hmmm....its the past~

and also....
the reggae class i registered started!!! fun..oh man..love it...haha...learned 4 techniques already:

-first class: pepper seed? & locked on
-sec class: on line & "dog pee position"->forgot the name for it... Xp

next lesson will start of our cheoreo and some other techniques too...love it man!!!

well..thats all...1mth plus till i grad!!!

*remember to come down NATIONAL LIBRARY for my grad show on 12th mar-15th mar!!!

and

FUNd raising in my school..NANYANG POLYTECHNIC on 19th jan-20th jan!!!

cya!!!
akemi

busy busy busy~ hmmm...haha...lotsa to update especially ny bintan trip..sooon!!! =p

mean while watch this...lAST class of this year cat's dance class...



take care~
akemi...

wahh~ my counter hits are like jumping so fast now...and yet....no updates...eh...so sorry...really busy till somethings went wrong up there~

im busy...busy with works that i gain no credit points..hahaha....

not as if im free... but they interests me...haha

*moove new project for bidding : UNIVERSAL STUDIO TRAMS in SENTOSA
well..they like the design and impressive...got in the 1st rounds...im happy like...........haha..but still got to continue i guess...do not know how the bidding works..haha...thats what BY told me...hmmm...

*JENELL's PROJECT
to you: how i wish u just don't graduate lah...omg...pon school lah..pon more loh...then got to do design to gain back points...omg...owe me big big sia.....i very ex de leh...FUTURE DESIGNER LEH !!!!! better keep my work nicely...who knows i will be famous, can give you my autograph..hahaha.... Xp

still got IAP... Studio....compeition.... busy busy...haha...got lotsa pics...but give me sometime still....hehe...SOOOOOOooooo sOOOOoorrrrryy!!!! Xp

gtg...

tata..

take care
akemi

whoooohooo~ back to school again!!!!

mixed feelings still...feel like coming back and yet not too...
*somethings i need to clarify~hmmm...i'm into a new relationship fast doesn't mean i'm not loyal~or i'm a flirt... i'm into a new relationship now because i knew somethings about him and i don't see why i need to love him again when he is already or nope~ had never put his feelings into our relationship..it is out of a question that im grouped together with girls that often had new bf and hurt those guys feelings!!! i'm the one who got the hurt~ *smirk*

i'm in this new relationship because i can see how well he treated me as a gf..alright for now since we just started..its not that firm yet thou...need time to slowly discover~ [Don't got affected oh..] but at least i won't feel like a dump ass being played around i felt true happiness.. like he said: "單纯的拥有彼此,才是最辛褔的事~" hmm...if everyone can be naive and love each other..wouldn't it be a happiest things ever in love?

well...so be it if they want to say wor...because it's my life!!! =)
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wednesday:
went to school...haha...like a chalet lah...wanted to do the report but think there is no time for me..haha...
went school~ see their home in contrast presentation...like their works..but it gave me stress too..haha..cause they did pretty well wor... impressive..hehe..pat on your guys back..haha...

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went for lunch at KFC..sinful day man...haha..but it was long since i ever taken fast food still..haha...till like 2 plus... [school ends at 3pm] -_-"

then~

back to studio awhile and squash...haha...so long loh..like stopped for 3 mths wor..haha.lucky still can play..haha...den chong and meet him liao..haha...

I'M PLANTING A CHRISTMAS TREE!!!!
happy happy...isn't it interesting..haha...can put decor on my own TREE!!!...cute cute cute~~ happy lah..haha....hope mummy will not throw it away not knowing it's my TREE!!!

haha..k lah...pain is coming back..got to go....

take care!!!
tata... =)

Today is 21st...our last day of internship...hmm..no buses are officially out yet.. sad =( but other small stuffs were out for the sales team...

PENDING WORKS:
* NUS bus..is a confirm job.. but following up by my boon yeow..yea!!
* most IMPORTANT** the IR bus design.. IR airport booth.. [something that can thicken my portfolio]

might be working on another 3D project for Jess..waiting~

gotten treats from other departments..and really nice working there.. happy wor..hehe... taken lotsa picture..and i going back again..cause my stuff are still there...hmmm...


as planned..we went to cineleisure to get the keychain...hmm...and we ate botak jones...haha...caught the "Beverly Hills Chihuahua"...is funny lah..i love dogs...sooooooo cute~ but is still a so so movie as parts of it might be draggy..hehe....i like it because they were dogs!!! =)

he got me a NDS LITE and it is in WHITE!!!! OMG~ really shocking wor...so sudden wor..haiyo...cus i dun remember i mention about getting a NDS to him...but really happy wor... thank you dear~ <3

so tired...YAwnZZ...got to go le... pics up on next post after i got back my cam~

take care
tata

Work as usual but less stress now..hehe...cause is the last week!!! sad~ mixed feelings.. =)

he came and fetch me as usual too..haha...and we went bugis for dinner...yummy..."LAI LAI BEEF NOODLE " nice~ is locate opp bugis junction the stretch when u get all the foods..hehe...look for "LAI LAI" hmmm...really good... good beef and good noodle...yummy... =)

then went to the bugis street to get the shades i wanted..bought it..and shopping after that...brought 3 tops and a dress...thanks wor... =)


went home...tired wor..but still got to think of concepts wor..hehe.. and got to do my hair...cut and perm and treatment..hmm...when when when...??

go le..tata~ =)

whooo hoo~ hey guys~

wah so long ever since i blogged~ like more than a month? OOoppps... too busy with attachment..

lots of updates and lots of picture..haha...

i designing this IR bus that gets me crazy and busy for more than 3 weeks... my report just go " IR bus- rhino~" or it goes " IR airport booth" and it goes " IR taxi".. but hopefully my design could get the bidding but it got to wait so long to get an answer~ Xp another week more and it end...3 months is fast ~ school im coming back oh~

[end of my attachment stuff]

new updates for my life too~


got it? nice guy!! better then rain!! don't think too much ar~ 傻瓜 no 1!! Xp sunny boy~
i got the Xing fu de feel..hehe..but hopeful he's not like that bustard.. now i can feel some percentage that you are not like him~ =) hope you like the diary wor.. <3

[end of personal life]

friends~ gathering with buddies~ happy lah~ and our bintan trip is nearing.. can't wait wor~

poly friends~ very long nva gather le loh..aiyo...accept for denise nia..haha...going back school sooon~ and all will gather liao...grad show~ and we graduate~ =)

thats all le..
tata =)

yesterday went liting house to prac for the competition on tue~ ar.....so tired we prac tilll 3 plus leh...but lucky is near my house then after that fishball drove me back home...but..it was really fun lah..get to know some of their church friends..funny thou~ make alot of jokes..

while i'm in dale's car beside is his friend's and they were like "racing" between traffic lights to traffic lights...simply because tampines have too much traffic lights liao...muahahaa~

and this is Dale's car~ haha...rushing to take picture so a bit blur because is going to be green light soon~

today the 3 's' and clarin flying to beijing le...send them off...hehe...suppose to meet at 9 am but.. i woke up at 9 loh...but heng still able to catch up with them~ talk to them awhile..hehe..

from left: sarah, sara, sophia and clarin~ Bon vogage oh~

people sending them off are me..km..denise..eason..and fishball..but he late...so 3g-ed them while he is on his way there~ hehe


Us and sara~


went Mac for breakfast and i tried the Mac griddies thingy?? haha...but i do not quite like it wor..hehe should order big breakfast instead...hmmmm...

crap for a while after our meals and it was funny..about the motorcycle incidents and i think fish ball's uncle's incidents are funny... Vooooommmmm Voooommmm~ hehe..



k thats it le...got more pictures coming up oh..hehe...