rushing for vi now..im tired sometimes..and the pain just don't go away..i really hope is like what dad say...but thou i believe him there are still scare and worries..cause it just don't go away...

started to have negative thoughts.. maybe i couldn't go into their lifestyle.. maybe i am not suppose to go in or blend in... because is just not me and i couldn't afford... im just a nobody..i just need time i guess...

i want to enjoy my life...i want to achieve what i want to achieve...i want to believe myself that i can...i want to prove that i can make it...i want people who don't believe me to regret...but simply...i just want nothing to happen...and go back to baby life...the naive times where i see people being nice and good...the times where people care and concern...and the times where nothing happens...but i know it will not happen~

going back to work le... 안녕히 졔세요

i realized i did not blog for a long long time..

lotsa updates..lotsa pics..

will do it as soon as possible..

but for now..i going to relieve stress..

im totally messed up..and i know i got to change for my own good..

next week is my start of school after 2 weeks of troubled holiday..

im gonna do my work as in really to do work in school time...cause..i need to work already..i need money badly...i hope i can do it..really..i believe i can..

7th will be my favorite date now.. counting down to the day..jia you..

and now..

i do not know what had happen..but if it is going to be the same and not recover..i got to go see the doc..

just hope that it ain't any big problem to my health..