going crazy...ar~~~~ random thots going around my head..
no sleep...tired...and hurt...hah...well i said i took it light and it wun affect myself...is just to console myself...darryl..u are so right..really cant hide anything..not even lies..haha...it affect me so great..and still..in this pt of time where im chonging my projs...is really tough to get thru...super super tired...this is the continous 2 nites without slp..hao lei oh...but yet still got to hang on...and yet still got to put everything behind my head...2 more days i will be less stress..hope everything will be fine for me...yea!!!! aza aza fighting....hold on my tears and get on...yes i will~ jia you...

tata :)

hah...jus a quick one..hehe..

i've watched alone...is nice..eh..i mean the movie..alone..hahaha...at first i tot of watching it with him..but end up watch with my jie meis..hahah..guess now i dun have to wait for his reply i already noe wats the ending..haha...i've wake up le..wun upset..wun cry..wait..will cry but not so much...hahaha..i've my own dream..own stuff to worry for..sad for..feel for..so im not like the past...closed in that world of hopes and love..i want to be independent..and i guess im going it very good now..aza aza fighting..fight fight fight...and also i want to be healthy...i believe that the day will come very soon..no gastric..no back pain...no fever..yea!!! ^_^v

hehe...oh ya..i got my new fone le oh..love it..but still figuring how to use..hehe..and guess wat my kidish daddy say? haha he told my mum [pretend to be secretive]: tonight we wait till hui slp liao go to her rm steal the fone and have voice conversation in our rm....hahaha... -_-" haha
i was jus beside them lah..hahah...so stupid..i say i will make sure its locked up..hahaha...fine...bcus of this family im happy now..for sure dat i noe dat im happy and i enjoyed myself being with mum and dad..haha..i din mention abt gege oh..cus he jus pick on me..till now k...haha..so leave him out..mummy also wun mind me pei her forever..waha...dats wat she say..so great..i will stick with her..like super glue...haha...so gan dong..jus now she wanted to pei me finish my work wor..though she din say..but her action and stupid question make me thinks so..but she sleep liao..haiz..me go sleep liao also..tml sch...new day...think my classmates miss me liao...no see me cus of the mc..eh..actually i din get mc..haha..i jus rest at home..haha...new start of the week...fight till the due dates...and lets be friend the china treasure now!!!! crap~

tata

school's boring....did quiz in class:

You Should Drive a Pink Car

You're the type of driver who really loves your car. You can make a car last for ages - or take good care of a vintage ride. You're independent, creative, and very expressive. You consider your car a part of you ... and you want to make it as funky as possible.

What Color Car Should You Drive?

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you. You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations. You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves. You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

What's Your Inner Gender?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Kaede Hayashi

What's your Japanese Name?

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Are a Golden Retriever Puppy

Tolerant, fun-loving, and patient. You are eager to please - and attached to your frisbee.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

What Poh Sihui Means

P is for Placid O is for Openhearted H is for Handy S is for Sweet I is for Impassioned H is for Hilarious U is for Unusual I is for Ideal

What Does Your Name Mean?

wahaha....stupid class did in class..

go for next class le..

this is how i feel..pain~ and is always rainy day to me...

im disappointed..all changed...i dunnoe wat is shld do..but wait...it hurt when msging u..it hurt more when u replied..now i've decided..not to msg u..rather dump to write this here..and im dump enuff to talk to my beanie bear...hug it and cry..its stupid and i know..but not how? i wish i share it with my dad..but i dunnoe how shld i start..ar~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~i dreamt dat all ended..is dat a hint??

你带我上天堂又推我下去....
我拥抱着遗憾坠落在天际...
你带我上天堂又推我下去...
不敢相信但你已决定...

it end here............

going 1 mth le...nop..is new 1 mth..to be calculative should be or might be the 3rd or 2nd mth le..好难过哦。你又开始像那时一样了是我想太多吗？我好害怕！终于敢问你了。你就说是应为你很忙，很累。那我因该这么做才能让你感到温馨呢？我好想合乎你.替你打气哦！我不想结局就像上次一样。你的心情不好吗？好像问你，可是我已经答应不再问你那么多的问题了。可是我还是会担心你。想知道你还好吗?一对couple虽然不需要每天见面，可是无论如何都需要沟通吧。我亲眼看到我的朋友为他的gf难过，就应为沟通上出现了问题。那我们呢？

是我想太多了吧，无论如何只希望你没事！！

monday: happy 1st mth anniversary to u oh!!

aim-less...hate it...feelings..thinkings...attitudes...who can hold me tight without letting me drop back to the past...the fearful,the scary,the messed up,the craziest,the lonely,the emotions......past dat i had been living...i stood up not long...but im falling back...im stepping into the world of past again...remind me to stand up if i can...stop me....

wat are my dreams?

wat do i want?

PASSION!!!!!pls come back...im doing it for the sake of doing it...am i happy? is this wat i jus want...not me...jus not me...changing...im changing...want to be in my world..its selfish...but i wanna be in my world...no spoken words..no voices heard...all quiet...live for the sake of living? izzit wat im doing? blank...maybe time helps bah...dun ask y ...dun ask wat happen...jus let me be....