me: lotsa proj arrr!!!!when is this going to stop? i want break~~~
outsider: ha~ 2 weeks later break liao~
me: -_-

fine..this is dump..haha..im crazy lah~s t r e s s !!
lotsa things happen lah.. my new fren sick liao..keep on hang...super sian lah..
please dun do that again... though u might think is fun..or maybe u dun mean it...but im upset..or mayb pissed? y u do dat..or let other do dat??? i felt dump..silly..stupid...it make me feel lyk idiot...i felt im the world dumpest gal...and i agreed..i admitted!!jus 1 day..fine..fren fren fren ok?? i din say anything~ fine..stop!!!!!!


take care

still in school..i wasted 3 hrs slacking and din get anything for my proj tml..read my fren's blog..she broke up le...y do couples start when they know it will end? me too..im lyk dat too..but i cant explain it myself too...listening to songs now..somehow i tot of him again...i knew we cant continue le..i knew im nth to him le..but its pretty hard to put down..he preferred when we are frens...if i knew it earlier..i wouldnt hab start with u..at least i know dat we can continue to hab nver end messages..but now..i felt weird..i wanna msg with u..but i dun noe how to start..i knew roughly what u will be doing..cus all the while when we are together, im getting to know u more..but..i wanna be wat we use to be..is really very hard..i dint delete all ur msgs away..cus i couldnt forget..when i look back...im happy..but when i finally realize is all memories,my tears dropped..im waiting..but i knew im waiting for nth..i knew it will be it le..

i feel dat im using my pressie as a reason to meet u..not bcus i wanted the pressie..but an excuse to see you...i knew im nth from the day u stop viewing this blog...dats it...y am i always holding on sth dat i shouldnt?

u ask if i know wat day is 22 may..i felt guilt...i tot is sth dat happen btw us..but end up u are jus pulling my leg...y? i felt chance but not again..when could i say stop and when could i totally pull u out from my heart? my memories is depleting..but i hope those memories with u will remain untouched.jus lyk our neo prints and the keychain remain as it is in my wallet and my bunch of keys..hope to see u soon..cus i really miss you now..

the logo for our kaya!! cutie..drew by me using illustrator...

the initial label b4 today's refinment..

the other 2 flower denise and koh mei mei..

me!!!

wah~did u all miss me?? hahaha...very long no blog liao...cus no connection at home..haiz...alot of stuff to post..alot of pics to post..hehe...anewae..i finally hab my new fren with me..ha..my lappy ..*tata~*haha..happie lah...can use it personally..and do my hmwk easily..ye...

now whole class slack major proj wor..daninel fuming liao..haha...everybody chong minor proj leave the major one behind..*gosh wish us luck bah..haha...now in sch ..onli sch time can use net loh..haizz...post some of the pics dat i hab in this lappy first..
haha..mani more pics will load it again..haha...

wake up girl~~~start working~~~no motivation...no inspirations~~~
though we are frens..and only frens....somehow somewhere...the feelings is weird...cant tink...the date is coming ...nearer...but i knew...i cant...arh~~~ how lah...i dun wish to be remain as this kind...i dun dare...i dun dare...give me courage...i dun need anything..i need..ur care... ur concern...im silly...wake up girl~~~dun slp le...u ask wat i want...but those frens with me knew wat i really wan...did u know? did u realise wat i need? 好想哭泣...但是我又忍住了...因为知道这是没用的...不知道从及时开始依赖你...可是知道我不能不依赖你了...how...haiyo...

*snif**snif* haizzz..*yawnzzz* looking at the time is 5.51 AM...im still awake...not bcus i jus woke up..is i din even take a nap...

tml oh no is today need to show them 15 concepts...but i onli have 3...maybe to daniel and garry there might be not even 1...i hab no concept..no feel and passion for my studio..for my design...i've got the verch to end this and throw everthing away...my mind is a total blank..脑袋空空...像傻瓜...i cant draw...i cant draw wat i want...can u feel how i feel...if i cant draw liao..wat can i do sia...haha...find a guy and get married?hahaha...and pls hello...i poh sihui be housewife...isn't it funny? imagine im always busy with myself inside a KITCHEN...haha...dat will be a total riot..hahaha..and screaming and yelling when hanging clothes out...haha....i jus feel blank...did someone suck my brain cells out or suck my drawing skills out? y am i not moving forward?i cant draw wats in my mind...oh gosh...wat i really want? the passion for design seems far away from me...jus feel lyk my designs sucks...im not sensitive...i cant potrait wat i want the audience to feel...and most importantly is boring...haiyo....how leh...close myself shut...and say THE END!!! can i??

i should be glad dat those proj on my hand are lesser...i shouldnt rant abt anithing right now..or do i have the rights? maybe the expectation i set for myself is too high? or maybe im still unable to change myself and not to be so perfect..but i jus cant...friends said im stress not bcus of the work load i have...but too eager to be perfect in all my works..hahaha...change change change...am i still perfectionist? compare with last time...am i still? haizzz

*yawnzzz* im slpy..but i couldnt even make myself step in my room...the moment i saw my cosy bed...i will slp and see i take cab to sch..i dun want...im broke..so i should jus wait for time...and i will leave the hse to sch..is the 3rd week....and i burned midnite oil for already 5 to 6 days...omg..can i even get slp for at least a continuous week? is tiring...i dun want my eye bag to be bigger den my eyes...arh~ is ugly...hahaha...and alien...haha

enuff of craps..get back to work le...tata...

ytd nite class wor...sian wor...but class end le wne tout with my classmates..ern drive us wor...we are his 1st passengers leh..not bad arh...very cool neh..make me wanna learn also..but i scared wor..dun noe y leh..haizz...reach home already 4 plus le...tired...but dun noe y i tot of u again...some of my frens said dat i should jus end it..but i dun noe wat i should do...dat day msg wit u.. ur msgs sound depressed wor...i very worried wor...i wanna console u wor..i hope to be there when u are down wor...我不想你自己不开心...我要像你那样安慰我,安慰你...既使我们现再只是朋友而已...我也会担心你..呵护你..别骂我傻...我自己也不知道我为和还会再呼...即使朋友已经对我说你已经对我没感情了...我只是想以朋友的关系安慰你...当初如果没答应,我们应该会跟好...当初如果给你冷静下来...会有用吗？会比较快乐吗？there is once sth happen btw us..when i tot of it again...is quite weird...haha...there is once i meet u for dinner after u work at bugis...we ate pastamania..u remembered? i guess is coicident bah..haha..wat i tot in my heart u actually really ask me...eg: i was tinking whether u will ask me about the army pants im going to wear..and yes..u said it..haha...i was pretty shock lah...den i tink if we will end up eating at pastamania...and yes we did...den i tink if u will say if i put that amt of cheese i always put..and yes u did...den i tink dat if u will ask y i bring such a big bag..and yes u did ask again..haha..all happened in 1 day...i din say..i was onli thinking in my mind..and yet u ask out...i got shock lah..and i stupidly dun dare to tink again...after dinner..i was actually thinking wanna go see stars...but i dun dare to say wor...u ask where to go..i said anything...but in the end u still say..."really meh" dotx....haha...or maybe really is 巧合lah...haha..but is quite amazing wor...i actually regret not treating u better wor...haha..i told 1 of my frens..if we happen to patch this round again...i will not care and treat u better wor..i will not tink of anything again and enjoy being with u...quite regretted neh...but nva mind lah..haha..all we hab is memories wor..there is 1 saying... 不在乎天长地久...至再呼沉井拥有...i've got wat it meant... hehe...but i still cant get over lah..time time time..haha...

sch stuff...haiz next week presentation for studio..cham wor..15 concepts leh..now even one also no hab le..all rejected..wat they say is only: be more geometry...arrrrrr...dun noe wat they want...1 want sguareish...1 want organic...siao lah...how to conbine...calculator finally handed up...but 1 additional model making coming...shampoo bottles...haiz...and 1 ergo proj also coming...piangz...so wats the difference btw handed in proj...is still the same...so many...and the shitty lappy still haben come yet..i need it so badly...i cant do my hmwk lah...my illuastrator...lucky lec extend it..if not see how i die lah...kaya proj need illuastrator also lah...now cant process without meeting with denise..siao lah...den my com so lac...wanna install in my com also cant..once install=mouse dead[mouse cant even move lah] so wat for install in my com ..arhhhh...

my store..haha...alot of ranting leh...haha..my store hor..haiz..i need help lah..who pro in html thingy wan? i wanna redesign lah...i feel dat now is not user friendly..wanna update more stock also dun dare leh..haha...who can help me pls contact me lah...

k lah...my projs calling for me liao..tata...oh...wait...who wanna go the fun fair also call me...ytd go treatment see the fun fair again..i realli wanna play lah...haha...

wahaha...siAN wor..now this time...i still in sch lah...sian loh..cus of that calculator...haha....pics pending..not finish yet.hehe...den ...waiting for dat pang sai lah..so slow..i hungry wor..den later go amk eat sth liao go home chong studio le..tot of 1 concept...DANCER~ hope it works..haha..but tml need to show at least 15 concepts leh..i only got 1 loh..crazy le...arrrrhhh...didu read my blog? i really wanna noe lah...k le...gtg liao..tata..

hey..today is may day...whoo...1st day of may...should be happy today..but change le...ok...its over and im coping..fine..lets not tok abt it le..my blog kana complaints lyk im emo..very emo loh..

ytd we've done sth unbelievable...1st...class ends at 12 and start again at 4..km denise fiona and i..gone to tampines during the break and go back sch for class...haha...jus to take neo prints..weirdo...on the way..we saw a cute but yet i tink 笨笨的bird keep on knocking onto the wall..
haha...fiona go carry it loh..den realli cute lah...at first it is very fierce..bite fiona leh..den when fiona carry it..it shuts down and laid its head on her hand..super cute..haha..we bring it to tampines..buy a very innovative hse...very fortunate loh..this bird took mrt and bus with us...haha...den the hse of it is made up of...the aluminum tray..towel..and the laundry bag...haha..realli cute wor..haha..den took neo print liao...go back sch..we are late of cus..and we skip lunch..jus bcus of the cutie bird and neo print..haha..

class end liao go back home le..weird body...mayb too tired le..and a sudden weird craving..i ate cereal for dinner..koko crunch...haha...i even gone down to buy wor..eat half way slept on sofa sia..lyk unconcious loh..den sudden wake up at 1..and i cant slp liao..work on my calculator till 5 plus in the morning wor...crazy de..6 plus need to wake up go meet them de wor..den slp 1 hr..haha...end up flu loh...haiz...very uncomfortable lah..nose wanna drop le lah...den now worst arh..im feeling hot...haha...i mean real hot...hope tml can get well loh...got sch arh..its illustrator class tml..though im com idiot..but i lyk this module wor..cus no need to think de..haha..den jus draw without reason loh..free..haha..k lo..i go continue with my calculator le.. o...and i thing...u still read my blog? y do u ask if i hab sch tml? u today very weird wor..hope u are fine..abit worried..hehe..



lyk this alot..haha...

"neoprint" shots in class..

the neoprint dat led us all the way back to tampines during break
[got 1 more...pending..]



no stars today...-_______- haizz..