went to work for like 3.5 hrs? of cus no sales..haiz...commission is gone...then went back school for a briefing for my IAP that is starting on 1st sep..erm...excited cum nervous cum worried cum afraid kind of feeling?

i got to a adverbtising agency? moove media~ heard of that?
mainly i guess is to attract people's attention on those outdoor advertisements? like cabbies? buses? trains? interchange? those advertisement u saw are by moove media~

attended my friend's presentation on moove media..find it quite fun and she also assured me that it is fun and enjoyable...so i should be fine there...

but hopefully not too much work that i cant do my own project...

going with alvin too..but he is the god of graphic design..shld be stress bah..hope to learn lotsa stuff from him too...and hopefully i wun give the company bad impression haole...jia you jia you~

-end-

HAppy birthday km!!! may your wishes come true oh~ and enjoy yourselves today!!! all the best~

happy birthday to u...
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to km...
happy birthday to u...

=)


went to take my stuff just now..well..din see him..and he knew i coming and he is gone...
saw his uniform on his bed...got my things.and threw away unwanted stuff..
i left his mouse..hp..and the ring...which make me hesitated..
his mum ask again what really happened..but i really do not know the answer...but i somehow feels something is wrong somewhere...that he do not want to share...
just like what wan said... if now he could not share everything..then in future how u two going to live together without sharing..and yes..that is true...the future...

his mum sayang me again...touch my face and said those words...but i really make it through told her i will not be sad...told her i will not think of him..and i left...

that is the end of our story...i will be telling my family know later in the afternoon le...
stand up brave girl~

~

went vivo after that...looking for presents...and have dinner...talked with my bestie...
we planned to have a holiday..but unfortunately time does not click..so end up will be in the neighborhood country like Malaysia or Indonesia~ as long we go for holiday...before dar go ns for 2 yrs..haha

and a steamboat session..which is like so sudden..haha...this coming friday oh....

finish talk..thought of having movie as all shops are closing..but the time is too late..so din watch le...gone back..and waited ah ong...go back together...hehe..

chill at prata shop..where the place is for us to talk things out and share~ haha...

i realised who are really my friends and who are people that are just passing through my life~

i love you my friends!!!! <3

today is sinful loh...ate sushi ate popcorn...my per day meal gone for today..haiZZZzz...

celebrated ong's birthday...it was long after the gangs gets together..fun and enjoyable...

no worries while with them...no problems...just be myself..love them so much~its hard to find friends like them..lots of envy from my other friends..but they are still the best....

cause i will not forget how they be by my side when i was going through my lowest times...
how they pulled me up...how they accompanied me...through this years..there is nothing that ever breaks the 7 of us... thou there might be small quarrels..but..we will get it through together...

i do not know how to say the feeling..its just like...as close as a family~

and 1 thing~ this time im not as heart breaking as before because i realise u guys are more important then him...cause even if i lost him..i still have you guys by my side till the end~

remember our promise today..haha..now all of us are 20 years old..we took this group pic..in future when we are 30..40..50..60..70...and so on we will still take grp picture..and we will compare ..hahaha....and make sure the green frame will not get bigger on my face... humf~

lastly..i love u guys!!!!!! no matter how depressed i am with school...work..him or friends...i still have you guys around me 24/7... love ya!!!!

TING!!!!
WAN!!!
AH ONG!!!
AH POH!!!
ZEZE!!!
DAR!!!

next year remember our holiday trip ar..no matter where as long we go for holiday together...~

now 3 plus...later 2 plus meeting them again..going to somewhere my hurts is the deepest..his hse!!!they accompanying me along..to pull me...to protect me...this is wat friends are called..hahaha...den vivo to shop ard..hehe...love them..really...after today...i really see wat are friends..eh...not only today..everyday...

thou we do not see each other often..but the natural bonding between us is too deep~ too deep to let us feel left out....

*wan ,poh and dar went KL.. got all of us and themself 小褲褲..hehe...so cute...and we going to wear it together when they are at my hse...hahaha...

pics will be up as soon as they sent me liao...hahaha

-end-

today work is like a war~

background of story:
-working for BLACK CLOSET selling evening dresses

-black closet's boss or designer is former IS's designer

-therefore dresses will be in similar design.. [im a design student too..so no matter how big the difference is..there is still the essence of the designer.. NOT COPY!!!]

-therefore immediate competitors

-just like 3 counters away in Scotts Isetan



story:
-customer tried my clothes and IS's and cant decide~

-came back again...and took our dress over to their side and tried..omg!! is like dead soon...

-i followed..she loves both greens...

-she asked me for opinion..

-frankly said that their green is to bright for her skin colour but the design is not bad...jus a bit complicating..but mine will be darker..and a bit different..

-the damn promoter just said that our dress is outdated..bubble skirts are like on for 1 and half years already...but their is like elegant and stuff..the material blah blah blah.. and worst their material are bad de loh..ours quality better loh..satin ok...theirs leh..just a gloss only loh and is so thin..doesn't mean is good...humf~

she said and shoot our dress loh..wth..big black thing...

and when the customer's friend thinks that our dress is more unique~

she said" come on.... pls tel her the truth!!"

WHAT THE FUCK SIA!!! so dulan..omg..

for my character..i bo bian loh...

i jus said nicely..whatever we say will of course be objective..as long you wear it comfortably and u like it... and there the promoter goes blah blah blah...fuck loh...

end up she buy their..wat the hell..the design more old can..

my boss designed that and now wat..he is already a boss of black closet and design that bubble dress..come on...which one is more outdated...hate her sia...may may shouldnt go loh...make me so guilty loh...fuck man~

* my apologies for lots of FUCKs being used~ heh...but realli FUCKED UP!!!!!!!!! thou i cant... =P

-end-

friday~

watched fireworks!! with him again...
erm..don't get it wrong..just feel he might be a nice friend...
nice fireworks...and was like busy siaming~ haha...
stand too near liao as if the fireworks are falling on my head...and burning~ -_-"

eh~ impossible thought..but its just a stupid reaction a person should have when watch fireworks..haha..

saw my 7 yrs lou gong...hahaha and sinyi..gone with them..and had a crazy night laughing during the journey from city hall back home...

lou gong send me back as usual~ and....

-end-


saturday~
busy day for work..good for me..can earn more commission..hehe...
ting last minute called me for club~ a guy called me for club too~
but of course go with my bestie lah..haha
fun..but it was a funny day after all..hahaha...with darren lao da..
first thing saw me he jus shouted

“失戀萬歲!!!" -_-"

talked with me and stuff...haha..nice dude...

and that day was also the day i realised mos will change the rnb side and the house side...hahaha..waited long and realised that..super pai sei loh~ haha

ting throw me to go home alone~ -_-" 2n is so convenient now...hahaha

-end-

erm...

today i went out with that guy...watch meet dave..its a nice show...and super funny...can watch oh~

after movie...was weird that he drove..i thought we are like going to take a cab or something but ended up...he drove and he couldn't find his car... =_="

went to east coast...get something to eat and chatted by the sea side..

erm..i love beach..especially the waves..it's just too soothing.. relaxing...

i felted so calmed..so relaxed..and less stressed after that~

he send me back home...

-end-

不再為他感到難過~
是他不珍惜我~
後悔的人會是他~
我想分開真正的原因只有他一個人知道~
不代表把責任都丟給我就是我的錯~
我的心已有了答案~
不再等待也不再去愛~

我會比從前更堅強~
比從前更快樂~
即使沒勇氣去接受新戀情了..
也對他們沒信心了..
我也會快樂的~

我不相信他們是真心對我們好的~
因爲我不相信珍愛了只相信自己..

愛情就像一場夢~醒來就沒了~
我要如何在相信能？

1 week 4 days le...

i've decided le...if he is not mine..no matter how hard i try..how long i wait...he is still not mine...maybe this is our fate..our fate to meet each other again after 2 years and ended again...but it is really worst then i thought...

after 2 weeks of break up i will let my family know le..it is hard to act nothing had happen in front of them...it is hard to act strong..it is hard to act i'm fine..it is hard to maintain my cheerfulness..

to love is tough..to wait and love someone who might have lost interest in you is more tough..

i've decided not to love...but just do whatever i want...enjoy my life that my parents made me to who am i..

to gain passion in what i like before...to leave here and get out of here...i know this seems like avoiding the hurt..but really wish i could start all over again...the life and memories that is without him~

friday will be the last day..and i will stand up le..not give us hope...not wait to be love..because he is not mine...i already could feel him left me...

人真的能在短短的時間内變化嗎？
我已經能慢慢相信了..

有哪一個男人是能真正付出感情的?
真正愛一個女人的能?

女人是要來愛的..疼愛的..關心的..
不是因爲你一時的寂寞來陪伴你的..
過後就把她丟棄的..

i thought 2 years ago after i delete all the post about him..this blog will not have any sadness..but end up..........

i got to start everything again...

saw this and i tried out~
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
do u think it is true about me? but i find it similar ~ can try oh~

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

1 week and 3 days le...

I'm still waiting~
bro-in-law ask about it le..but i still do not wish to let them know about it yet...

越來越痛苦了~ 我能隱瞞到多久？

my gastric came back too..and very very bad...till i feel like vomiting almost after my every meal~ the more i eat the painful it is..why is it sooooo weird de? really tired...shall wait and see how bah.. because i really hate medicine very much...

i changed song wor..haa.. though the song is a bit old...but it shows what I'm feeling now..how i feels... haizz..

it reminds of us 2-3 year back...thought nothing will happen again..but now...everything turn a big round and gone back to the starting point...



BOA - Waiting

Uri orma maningayo cham oren shigani hulloneyo
we jaku ne mami aphun gonji
we guri apha hanayo hogshirado himdun il issonayo
we amumar haji anhanayo

** Jigum inde gude aphinde
marheya hanunde naui maumur
oren shigan guderur hyanghan
girodon gidarimur
babogathjyo hangsang gurejyo
gure ya hejyo guder wiheso
sarangheyo yojonhi gamsaheyo
We nar jabji anhanayo we amugodo mudji anhanayo
gude obnun nega goenchanhur god gathnayo

repeat**

Na argo issoyo
nega gudege
majimag hangaji hejur su inun goshi
ibyorpuniranun god

Ijesoya kedarun naui
mojaran sarangur yongsohe jwoyo
sarangheyo yojonhi gamsaheyo
sarangheyo imari hago shiphojyo

translation

BOA - Waiting

how long has it been?
a lot of time has passed by
why am i hurting so?
why are you hurting?
by chance, has something happened?
why aren't you speaking?

it's now..
i'm in front you you..
i need to tell you my mind
the long wait..
waiting for you..
isn't it dumb?

it's always been like so..
it's always had to be like this
i love you for you
i still thank you
why aren't you holding onto me?
why aren't you asking anything?
do you think i can do well without you?

it's now..
i'm in front you you..
i need to tell you my mind
the long wait..
waitng for you..
isn't it dumb?

i know..
the last thing i could ever do for you is separation
please forgive my love that i've realize is not enough
i love you..
i still thank you
i love you..
i wanted to tell you this

today is another Friday~

1 week passed~

and I'm still waiting..i know I'm foolish but somehow..i knew the reason le bah...

hope i did not get it wrong this time..but i know..i was super heart broken..because he is sick..he is so stressed up...but i couldn't by his side this time round..

i knew i was wrong..

i'll still wait till u tell me yourselve that you love me no more!!! you already get use to life without me!!!

i went clubbing last night~

enjoy being single again?

i could not believe what i did...its just not me...if i were to go with my 死黨.. i guess it will not happen bah~

but i can say i really enjoy myself...but after everything ended..i missed him badly wor...

is ok.... at least saw this very tall cute guy.. OMG!!! he is just behind us..and he is really cute~ if not because of the guy following me i guess me and hana will just slowly move to him... muahaha~

that was so bitchy~

but that guy also not bad lah..at least i can have something to drink 1 jar wor..good good..haha..if not so thirsty can~ haha

damn HAna don't rescue me instead standing there counting how many guys approach sia.. wth~

but its fun...dance make me forget everything...i love dance!!! eh..not just clubbing ar..must emphasize cause I'm not chiong-ster~ haha...

few things i do not like about club but i dun mind going:
1: after club i smell smoky~ haha...
2: there is no transportation~ if there is someone send me home i do not mind wor~
3: DRUNKARDS!!!! omg is like terrible de loh..especially girls getting drunk...total turn off..
( because of that hana got splashed by a drunk lady in front her cute guy wor..)
4: its hot dancing with so many people around...if the air conditional is cooler wah~ that would be great~

hehe...know its a stupid cum bo liao post~ but i enjoy~ really..at least make me forget during that period of time...muahaha...

so anyone on for the next ladies night??

it was so long ever since i blogged...

haa..sudden urge now bah~ my life is changing le...

i dun wish to be who am i~ just want a ordinary and simple life? moving away from this confusing and messed up life....

me~ who make through all the way so hard to design now i thought of giving up and is like I'm left with 1/2 years to go before i get that cert i longing to have~

i also do not know why~
but i know is not about him i have that feelings when I'm with him too~

but i know every time when its at the most important times we will have problems...and there it goes again for my final year we broke up~

don't ask me what happened..because..i also do not know what i have done to make him hate me? the reason i thought is not even a reason..I'm so lost!!!!

i hope i can make it through and not like when I'm having O..

get over it and I'm done~

i could if i can don't take everything so hard~