OMG!!!! i grew FATTER~~~
i can feel the FATS when i sit down AGAIN~~
i want to slim down... arrrr~ all bcus his fault lah~~ 讨厌~~~

shit~ i was rejected again~ does it really look like bird bird?

or his mind is corrupted?

tata

haiz...now still in school rushing my projs~

i knew i cant resist my bed and bolster tempts~ so stayed in school!!

on hand are studio...waiting to be approve is like presenting next week WITH MODELS~ and im still developing like hell...



home later to do portfolio...ar~~~alot arh~ sleep!!!sleep!!!where are you?

CNY coming and i have not get my new year clothes..OMG~ and is like the last dateline is at 4th? haiz....poor me~



k lah...continue with my work le...
tata

well well well~
i permed my hair~ hahaha...erm...ok lah..some says suit me...but everyday is a diff look...wahahaha...but most importantly...he says its was cute~ post a pic after i taken the nicest one...haha

i totally forgotten about my comm skills e-accessment to be handed in by 10 pm on sunday..
hah` but i just handed in ..and the system sucks...do not know how it works..and i just realise the 2 trial is on the same page and we can click by clicking review...asshole lah~marks like shit~please give us more instructions can~ or am i the only dumb ass? hahaha..

check out friendster just now and realise that WL found a new girl? hahaha...i finally got over the guilt~ sorry to say but...after i with him, i realise we aren't meant to be together... sometime remain to be my entertainer will be better~haha... but i'm glad i was with him once if not i will not know that i have not get over my ah ming ge... i have that guilt and i feel bad... cause i was like using him to help me forget about ah ming ge because the feeling was a total different... but luckily he had a new girl le...im happy...and hope WL will not do the same mistakes again~
eh~ well i knew it because his girl saw my friendster? erm...whats going on? everyone looking at my friendster? and most importantly im jus a nobody!!!

not only her..his past also saw it...aiyo..nothing to see de mah..just ask me directly what you want to know loh...

im happy with what i have now... i knew when to give in and when to give out... maybe when someone is hurt once will be able to control their feelings? ok...

dance on sat~ hahaha..abit random wor... but hor must comment on sat dance...super duper tough can...my legs turns jelly after the class...and my leg is super duper cramp...and i meeted him in the evening and to be sway enough, the routes we walked..are all stairs...pain like hell lah~ i took around 10 mins to climb down the stairs..luckily the bus he took is just about to reach nia...haha...

1 thing... our relationship is a secret for my family~ and guess what? he took the same bus with my sis when he came to fetch me...OMG lah..think my sis din manage to recognise him after 2yrs? haha...but heng loh...if not i also do not know how liao...haha... but i quite happy when he agreed to come fetch me...haha...he was at home..and we decide to meet up and i suggest go his hse to do my proj...but there is a request~ is to ask him to fetch me from my house back to his hse...haha...and he agreed? OMG~ is something he will not do last time lah..but end up no enough time to do my work..so ended up pei him go cut hair then go vivo buy some stuff and dinner...den to his hse he change to his uniform loh..haha...i packed his bag wor...so sweet hor...wahaha...and I FOLDED HIS CLOTHES HOR~~!!!! Xp den send him to camp le loh..his parents den send me home...wahahaha...

that is it...enough of blabbering...going to continue with my work liao...lotsa things to do...

tata~~~

wah~~~
so long since i blogged..
busy in sch~ lotsa stuff to finish..
projs unfinished..and i cant keep on moving~
i pushed to my extreme and i fall sick~
chonging overnite seems to be part of my life..
getting habit of finish proj at last min~ arrr~ i dun want~ it leads me to illness~
hanging on there..but when i realised, a day passes again..and i have yet to touch my work...
MOVE ON~ make me healthy so i can concentrate more~
_________________________________________________________________

i thought thru~
its ok how ppl treats me, it shldnt bothers me..
i knew how i treat them..thou i din get wat i shld
it shldnt bothers me..
cus in the end they were only small characters in part of my life...
its just a small setback...
feeling sad and irritated will only add more miserable storyline to my life...
happiness is wat my life would be..
cus every sadness will fade away together with my laughter~
so smile more :) it helps making my life better~
_________________________________________________________________

im going to reveal my secret to u~
sorry but i din tell u abt this...knowing its unfair~
the rest knew abt it...
and i actually decide to tell u on x'mas nite..but eventually it failed~
cus i dun wanna trouble u animore~ haha...

well.. but i guess u might thought it before..so i say le oh..
im with him le....the "him" i guess you already know who is it~
the reaction they give was just a stunted look~
and i knew i disspointed the whole group of you~
but i realized that this 2 years i did not really manage to give up...but i tried before...it
din work~
and i thought of giving him a chance~
i did not let my parents know...cus i promised them to answer him only until i graduated..
and it hurts whenever i lied to them..bcus i made a promise to myself too..not to lied to them anymore~
well..but now...im a different me compared to 2 yrs ago..
im making sure he will love me more then i love him~
yes i loved him..but the amount of love for him is moving up and down...
i wun say it too clear here..cus i knew i will got to explain to u when i see u...
it is also not that good saying things here..cus he might saw it..
but for now..i assured that he did change abit~ and im still looking~

in the past~
i worked in the watch shop for around a year and he din even fetch me or send me lunch at all~
but now~
when i was working during my holidays~
he will not fail to fetch me home...thou is not outside of my house..its just interchange..he is already different...cus he would only send me to the bus stop of his house in the past~
he send me lunch and they were lunch not bought near to my workplace..
but lunch that i have craving for during that time...

in the past~
he would say..ok buy this for u..buy that for u...but in the end....it was another story..and he forgotten it~
now..when he says that he really will do it~ i was pretty shocked..cus i din really espect it to happen~ he worked hard to save up for the NDS lite that i wanted... he himself wanted a PSP slim...but he said..he will get mine first before his~ for now... he is not that rich..or maybe to himself only..because of that girl~ but he would save it..working hard.. just to make me happy.. getting me stuff and surprizes~

in the past~
it was always me going down to look for him instead of him finding me~
but now...he would always be the one initiating... before he went in for NS... he would ask what time should him meet me at interchange~ there was once we going to vivo for movie... and he came all the way down to tampines to accompany me take the bus to vivo...which is around 3 bus stop away from his house~ but he really did that...not only that time...lotsa time..
but i will instead look up for him when he is tired usually after his booked out...

lotsa of his habits changes~
but there were some got worsen~
his temper~ because of some provoking from the girl and i was handling it nicely now~
there were times i knew he lied...and i would tell him..end up..it will be solved because of another excuse..i knew...but i did not ask more~ cus i knew i would not settle myself with him unless he really did change... for now..he would express his feelings for me..whenever we quarreled...he would assured me that he did not cheat me lyk what he does in the past...hope its for real~ and i believe it...

changes and changes..but i willl look for more of it in the future..be assured that..i will not move on the silly acts anymore... cause i want to forget my miserable past and move on~ i would not step into the low time in my past anymore~

like i said earlier.. happiness is what my life should be...
every sadness will be faded together with my laughter~
so smile :) it makes my life a lot better..