whoo...its holiday le~
and i found out a terrible truth~haha
sometimes it isnt mean trust...but it will end up mean honesty~
telling someone to trust but please think of being honest to the someone~
the tears shed~
how do they do it ?
i just don't understand~ do they get anything fun from there?
what is the purpose?
maybe the conclusion wasn't about them...
but its me...being able to fooled easily~

he went in le..

雨过天晴了吧！！

meeted him yesterday but i did not say anything nor him..

he stared at me awhile and hugged me tighly~

tears rolled down from his eyes..

i hang it on awhile but can't help it, it rolled down from mine too...

we hugged tightly...words that come out from our mouth were only words like "take care..."

i touched his eyebrows to mouth one by one...remembering them one by one in my heart...

his tears dropped again~ hah...

and kissed me the way he always did..or izzit the only way of kiss that we do it often...

the kiss that will usually make us laugh after that..but yesterday night， the kiss makes us cry more~

alright...no more sad stuff le... cause i guess already 雨过天晴了~

lets wait for him...friday is the day~

for now...please move on to my proj and upcoming test on thursday~

get moving~~

today is monday le...
monday morning...i did my work le...and suppose to sleep now for school later..but...i waited stupidly again~
tomorrow is the day...
the day that shall end everything?
i really have no much confident already...
he said i was the one...
but you and her weren't short...these years...
may it be the saddest or the happiest time?
its still her...
i'm the past...do you have the same feelings?
if yes..why wouldnt you cherish the time left?
i said i might not be able to see you again...why wouldn't you worried?
someone once told me this...
if this...if a guy really want to be with you, he will try no matter what to grap you tight...to cherish you
but you didn't...
we were together not because we feel for each other...
but is the pressure from your family..
its different from the past...
the feeling...
the way you cherish the relationship after the fight..is different...
is it because you think it through?
or is it because you already given up...
how i wish you can hurt me directly by saying:
" i love you no more!!! please leave me!!!"
rather then me waiting meanlessly...
please tell me what should i do???

signing off~

Sorry for not blogging this few days... i'm really vexed over some things~ Hope i will get over it as soon as possible...

firstly...my family~ today i want to introduce something that i think is nice and i tried it out myself i think is something we as a family can splurge on... but he...always give that irritating face...showing that i shouldnt have recommended it..say till it was how lousy and whatsoever...if thats the case, why will he still finish eating it so fast? just take a chance to pin me down? or to insult me? whats that for? shouting and screaming at me like nobody business.. i was very hurt~
he still dared to say its awful~ but why do you still say you go there often with friends?? what are you hinting now? could i change my fate and not to be his sis? oh my god...how long more should i endure? stay out more often? haiz...

night time was a stressful one~ we have a family talk~ money issuses~ at first i thought my parents were sick or something..but now is money issues...got to think of a way to help my parents...haiz....when will this problem stop too? and let my daddy to relax abit? i saw tears when he said the problems to us? this was something quite big...cause this was the first time that the whole family were called to stay and wait for daddy to say something...everyone was included....even bro-in-law...haiz..how could i get more money in a decent way and not let my daddy know? cause he already don't allow me to work unless its school's holidays....haizz...

for now...i'm still sad...we still not solved yet..i do not know what to do...i wanted to give up...but i can't let go..1 and a half days more....and now i still did not get to see him...i do not want to regret...how? it really hurts...did you mean that you are giving up? haiz...i knew where i should change le...but why you wouldnt give me a chance like how i given you a chance to prove to me? you said u will help me...but you did not....what should i do? really to give up? not to see you? before i cant make myself to forgets you? is this really our fate? why would the 老天爷 play a joke like this? making us meet up again after so many years and broke us again? this are only storylines that will appear in movies...why will it happen on me? it must be a dream~ illusion~ because i misses you too much~



> random pictures~ a gift from japan by Gan~ explaining 左拥右抱!! nice packagin~ inovative...what can i say? cause its from japan~ Xp

> finished eating BOTAK JONES~ with family~

P.S : - i won in the ASUS 's laptop skin competition as a gold winner for school category... pictures will put up soon~ 1 dec

- went utterubbish design exhibition...fun and interctive...nice works too... pictures will be up soon too~ 6 dec

signing off~