Monday, November 26, 2007

class as per normal in sch~ but im tired~tok out last nite..but seems that there are alot of things behind my back...i was stabbed by someone whom i dunnoe..i was said by someone saying dat i stab sombody and him...which is so impossible...me....was borned this way dat...no matter how i hate a person or do i really hate a person b4, i wun say dat person??!?!?!? for wat to stab ppl? for our own good? jus dun get the purpose of stabbing~ haiz....but still could not believe y is there this person on earth dat hated me so much...stabbed me twice~ and worst..i dunnoe who the hell he or she is...as in its logical to say dat way bcus i dun contact his fren...duh~ still dunnoe y there are such ppl on earth~haizzz

it makes me think of lots of stuff~ wat the sombody he meant?? i jus feels is her...but i do not dare to say...cus if its really her...i guess its hurtful for me lah....cus he seems to believe that person instead of me~ and still claim dat he believe i wun do such things...if he says so...y wld he still ask me? haizz...shld i really re consider my decision? but i want things to solve...these problem createed a huge impact on me...on my work...i could not start concentrating on my work...omg....deadlines nearing and im not producing...pls help...i feel lyk crying..but i dunnoe y..i keep telling myself to stop...and hide my feeling to myself...i did it..
i din cry in front of my frens...even i saw ting today and i still manage to control...hmmmm...not bad...but it hurts real bad in me...and i feel lyk hugging her again when i was alone on bus..duh~ which makes no diff...but still...i tink showing my emotions out cus prob...so i guess hiding is the best way?haizzz...jus hoping this ending soon~ and i hope it really end....and really happened lyk wat i said to him~ it was true that mayb i wun be able to see him again after he go in...haizzzz really hope to be with him for jus this 2 weeks...pls....can i wish for it?? but i dun tink it will happen anymore....i wun able to see him from then onwards...but will he care?
lyk wat i said to him~
dreams are to be awaken someday and mine had jus ended~ its still a nice dream dat i had been dreaming of~

suan le...fate is over? haizzz sicko...got to do work le...ciao~


ha~ mingshen sticking to the glass...looks cute in someway...haha

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