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*snif**snif* haizzz..*yawnzzz* looking at the time is 5.51 AM...im still awake...not bcus i jus woke up..is i din even take a nap...

tml oh no is today need to show them 15 concepts...but i onli have 3...maybe to daniel and garry there might be not even 1...i hab no concept..no feel and passion for my studio..for my design...i've got the verch to end this and throw everthing away...my mind is a total blank..脑袋空空...像傻瓜...i cant draw...i cant draw wat i want...can u feel how i feel...if i cant draw liao..wat can i do sia...haha...find a guy and get married?hahaha...and pls hello...i poh sihui be housewife...isn't it funny? imagine im always busy with myself inside a KITCHEN...haha...dat will be a total riot..hahaha..and screaming and yelling when hanging clothes out...haha....i jus feel blank...did someone suck my brain cells out or suck my drawing skills out? y am i not moving forward?i cant draw wats in my mind...oh gosh...wat i really want? the passion for design seems far away from me...jus feel lyk my designs sucks...im not sensitive...i cant potrait wat i want the audience to feel...and most importantly is boring...haiyo....how leh...close myself shut...and say THE END!!! can i??

i should be glad dat those proj on my hand are lesser...i shouldnt rant abt anithing right now..or do i have the rights? maybe the expectation i set for myself is too high? or maybe im still unable to change myself and not to be so perfect..but i jus cant...friends said im stress not bcus of the work load i have...but too eager to be perfect in all my works..hahaha...change change change...am i still perfectionist? compare with last time...am i still? haizzz

*yawnzzz* im slpy..but i couldnt even make myself step in my room...the moment i saw my cosy bed...i will slp and see i take cab to sch..i dun want...im broke..so i should jus wait for time...and i will leave the hse to sch..is the 3rd week....and i burned midnite oil for already 5 to 6 days...omg..can i even get slp for at least a continuous week? is tiring...i dun want my eye bag to be bigger den my eyes...arh~ is ugly...hahaha...and alien...haha

enuff of craps..get back to work le...tata...