我已经很累了!!!

i did my hair..trim? dye...and den...treatment..haiz..i realli wanna stop sia..painful arh~~she pulled more..till i felt the pain and the pain transferred down..same lyk 1st very unconcious..den..did the pressing of spine by dr karl wu?? he pressed harder..and is realli painful den the 1st..and he said: it will be painful..but this is the minimal..the strength will increase and the pain will be more..aaaaaarrrhhhh..i dun wanna do liao..

meet km to watch meet the robinson[3d] 1st time watch 3d movie..wore the spec?? haha..very giddy sia..but ok lah..haha..den meet von poh...i feeling very down...very very down...blaming myself? am i the pressure?? sorry causing lots of pressure..sorry..i dun noe wat i've did..i dun noe..neither did i want it to turn this way..i shouldnt ask u these qn...i shouldnt...i shouldnt irritates u so much..i shouldnt...alot of thoughts spinning in my mind...alot..i felt lyk crying out...crying out loud..shouting out loud to the sea..i wanna vent out..everythings seems lyk getting stuck somewhere in my heart...dun feel lyk going home...

trying hard to communicate with him...but y cant he understand? mum & dad keep on asking us to communicate..cus we are siblings..but did u try? im really tired..trying to give in..as if im ur elder sister..grow up...and wat else u did? tell other girls how u are being bullied in this house? hello..are u trying to get sypamthy from those girls? telling them i shout at u and i din respect u? but now hu is the one shouting? is YOU!!! but i jus let u shout ok..today still tell those girls dat daddy is unfair..hey..u is the 1 being unreasonable ok..is obviously ur fault..and u throw temper on dad ok..but dad din get mad but instead..did stoopid things to make u happy..how old are u..cant u jus think?? u are not a kid..cant u jus wake up...wat are u thinking? trying to get more girls..calling hotlines..hey..did u noe u wasted how much in this family? he u noe dad is getting older? did u noe u spent the unneccessory bills calling hotlines whereas the money can now help me to get a laptop for sch stuff? did u noe dat? did u noe that time is my most stressful time doing project rushing here and there in late nites to do project? did u noe mummy asking for my help helplessly and worrying for dad? did u noe? NO..u jus play basketball lyk nothing happen..and im there feeling helpless...cus y? i cant help at all...i cant even accompany mum for dat nite..i cant pay for ur bills..i cant do anything..i jus cry!!i felt so stupid..really...making wrong choices..if i dint choose this course..mayb i could have paid for u...i would have the time to accompany mummy..y??

evrythings seems lyk im the one causing it? y? i dint want to do all those stuff..y? y? y? i wanna stop..im realli tired..too many things happen in one go...i really cant handle..i wanna vent out..i wanna cry out..i need the breeze of the sea..ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry..