Yea I'm stressed up now...

because...

I will never satisfied with what i completed...

when will i ever be as good as producing fast and professional works?

AAAARRRRRR...i hate it man...

hmmm...i'm trying to blog as and when if i could..*wink

busy at work...but this is work life...hopefully i could work as least for 1 year..if not i find it pointless...
ya..i know its abit of random...haha...

next..Ethan...i can't stand him because he is just too adorable...like Da sha ge said...babies stupid stupid..yet they are cute...oh gosh..just dote him lots man....

well... ITS A SUPER DUPER RANDOM POST..!! PEASE BEWARE!!!
just want to say something..so here it goes...anyway..cant get to watch cinderella...sad....cause its too expensive...=(

THE END!!! <3

aHHHHHH!!! another cinderella show coming this aug till sept... happy..cause i LOVE CINDERELLA~ but.... is almost full...cant get near near seats...sad lah...but i wanna go lah~~ sian....hopefully can at least dun get those that are too far away... =)

hmmmm...been busy... *you know designer's life... =(

but...i did learn a lot..clients...that we cannot relate when we are in school...the super duper comfort zone...

ya...i'm still in office...on a friday night..what a sad case...all thanks to sucky clients...sian plus dulan plus a lot of points that i have yet to discover from...its just the beginning of my road that i chosen..
and i will not give up....

*jia you~**jia you*

*pat pat pat my back* lol

cya..

wow~ its been so long after i blogged.. oopzz..

well..life was great recently..starting to love my job thou its not furniture design...but i indeed learn alot stuff from here...

design intern coming in soon...and know what? is my junior...from VC...haha.. interviewed them last week... kind of weird thou..

also..i went for a course...3d studio max...fun class... and i knew the power of rendering from then..why school don't teach us that instead...damn it!!!
its really more useful when it comes to rendering photo realistic images for our products... good lighting and materials.. especially with v-ray... most importantly, when rendering a2 size..do not need to put it over night..haha... can be done like half an hr..

ps: fellow design mates... should try to learn that if u still wanna do product design..its really good!!!!!

hmmm... but if it comes to modelling..i prefer rhino..haha... den bring to 3d to render..lol.. maybe it takes time for me to adapt to modelling with 3d...haha...

lastly..my cute little ethan did his first cry on 9 jun.. full of expression...of course the cute ones..lol... check out my facebook... he is really cute...

chao~
bb

The thing that i fear of happened... i knew some day some how it would just happen...when would i start to have faith? when would i have the confidence?

sometime i just hate myself... i do not know why i could not overcome this bloody shity stuff that i'm fear of...

when will the wall be removed? when will i be able to be the past me when i would love and care someone wholeheartedly...

i'm sorry my dear~ <3

i enjoy my birthday~ thanks all...

wed went zirca to party with company....its fun overall....nice music....nice dancing time...wahahaha.....well...think really it's time to retire...lol...MOS changed to zirca liao...and i just know it only on that wed...hahaha....should try with my bestie some other days...cus its different with her...haha...with her= no ending of dance~ ooopsss...

well...working hard for a project but sad to say..im leaving tomorrow for a short trip to cruise...well..u can say " oh no again???" but ya..its new because im going with him too~ lol..his first trip oversea...and our first trip together...excited~

k lah~ got to go do my work le oh...

whooo....

work is still fine for me...and boss wanna extend the testing period for another 2 mths...hmmm...as he said...the company like me... thanks all to mike to give the chance..i can say... =)

well..next...happy dao~ the tram design that i did for Sentosa..remember??? got it...omg....they buying...omg..my design....omg...happy loh...universal studio tram leh.....oh my...

waiting for updates again from boon yeow..and wasted...because..i should have just go back..cause he told me today that actually he wanna hire me back de..but its too late..cause im in ogl liao..but i've told him..mine is not confirm..i will defintely go back if i can...

happy news man...

lol..
this coming sunday..is my party...red/black party...happy loh...hopely it wont be sian for my friends as there might be lots people u not know...

yea...red/black themed...red and black cake!! mayb a red drink...lol..cus there is no drink in black..unless coffee black? lol.. guess nobody wants that...hmmm....

remember its pasir ris park pit 8 ar...got get lost oh...

whooo hoo...been second day of work.. still going smoothly...like the life in school...maybe because Luke, the graphic designer is mc for 3 days therefore my workload is like double up?? hmmm... hopefully can learn somethings from there...i wanna prove them i can ~

well its challenging there..cause maybe i just graduated..no experience and stuff..everything starting from scratch..they will tend to compare....but i 've seen one of their works...wah..its really dope...but cant compare me with her lah..
super experience de can...i going 21 and she is going 31 le loh... but her work really look so nice...targeting...hehe...

k lah..that all man~
take caare~

ya.. i graduated...going to wear the robe soon...but i starting to have weird thinking again... sudden urge of not wanting to be a designer?

starting to learn the art of reality...its total different~ real different...and i felt that we shouldn't just end our poly life like this when its still way too far to learn from the society~ we are not there yet or maybe just me?

hmmm...starting to learn not to be perfect? starting to learn not to just listen and do ?

i am not ready for the next phrase of my life... hopefully i could adapt as soon as possible...get all the money and fulfill my dreams~ ^^


alright~ my 21st birthday is coming.. how should i do it? hmmm... i want to have a theme party but it seems that there are alot obstruction going~ no place~ will people really get all dressed up? ~ blah blah... next...budget~ tight~ going to cruise during the same month...argh~ but i want party...*sigh* alright just BBQ at least? hopefully there will be people coming~ please~ =(

alright...make it a colour theme BBQ? lol... when i say colour i guess most of u will know what colour le bah..RED AND BLACK!!! lol...nice right~ lol...

got to go...lotsa of stuff jamming to do...is it good or bad? good start? hmmm...

[i've been thinking alot while doing all the freelance~ verge on not becoming designer.cause it simply never ends~ =(]

Wah so long after i blogged....ooopss...well~ i graduated!!!! though did not get the GPA that i want but at least is still an improvement after all...dist for my lighting!! 3 cheers~~~

grad show past so long really miss the time with the 44 designers~

its tough~ with conflicts but its still memorable cause we did suffer together...
hmmm...really sad and miss it~

Scott finally saw my boy..lol... funny...cause they really have the same posture... got them to take pic~ lol...

with small eyes.. -> -_-
lol...


alright...recently doing freelance job that i felt not worth it...like lugi loh..haha..but friend price bo bian loh...and went for an interview...ya..an interview...at OGL asia...like event design de bah...will design work for exhibition...need 3d studio max...they do not mind i do not know how to use that software..cause they will provide me for courses...wah...not bad hur...lol..not sure yet...but during the test for my concept they like my style...not bad? now is the final test of application of software..like so many rounds loh..lol...but ok lah...

next "out of stock" still pending as the man went to milan...cool or what..out of stock leh...really wanna work there...but they hiring as an intern..not much pay...Xp but out of stock loh...who do not want? hahaha....

went back school cause of some incident and like kana cheated back...lol...but is ok cause have fun time gossiping..lol...


and yes..i got this leopard print hat...omg..i love it alot can.... from first look i like le...and is also the hat that i always looking for just that i dun like the colour or the prints...and now...LEOPARD PRINT!!!!! happy like what siol~ lol...

did modelling in the usual studio that we are in while waiting for scott for tea...lol..chatted alot wor...maybe we graduated..when hanging with the lecturers for tea..the feeling is totally different...but fun thou~ lol..

this is long~

take care

i just need space...to vent..because yes! i'm dulan...i'm busy... and i'm damn stress... please be kind to leave me alone?

i have lots of things to do...im not that GOOD to have all the benefits? fabrication or CNC... IM NOT FREE!!!

sometime i really wonder the unrevealed story behind our backs... arrows? backstage stories?
why do they get all this? but not me? i'm that lousy? then why am i still a 3 pointer...fuck!!!

or...are they just like models...got fuck and get all the job done? so a sin to born fat or ugly...hello mr 숏다리 u are old already...please dun try to taste the beauty's meat or sth?

dun try to act as if u are fair...only blinds cant see your act... your wife dun satisfy you enuff??

fine...

DUN EVER COMPARE... cause only people who are not good enuff do comparisons...

so you are not that good...cut all the act to be kind to people...reveal your damn attitude out lah...people...do your work...dun push around like nobody business...not everyone is as free as you... dun go about telling people how busy or stress you ARE...or show people how much things you hab done...cause we just know...YOU DID NOTHING!!! stop acting and get your butts off the comfort zone of pushing responsibilty...

you are given work to fulfil and not pushing...

dun lie to people that it is nice when actually u noe how bad it is... so this is how u feel proud of yourselves that you can do it? just bullshit...face the truth...it just that you cant face the reality...and just fuck off....

broke my toughest record...is to bring out my list of haters which is stack with dust and spidy webs...

my apology....because i really need to vent....

with love still~
akemi

it is just not my day?

im stressed~ real stressed... i graduated but it does not mean that everything ended...like i thought it will be going at a slower pace...

unfairness? bias? beauty and hardworking?

hmmm... only those involved know about it..but is it a crime to be less attractive? crime to be hardworking?

slowly..the effort of work will vanish~

because it isn't that important after all...

learn the beauty to forgive and take...

nothing is more important than them...as long as they were healthy and by my side... i don't mind what is the politics about...

age is just a number... a number that i'm afraid of..a number that i never know i will be scared of...hoping the time just stop...stop at this part of my life... and not pulling them away from me...i will be happy...

if you are rich doesnt mean you will be happy...
if you have the beauty..dosen't mean you will be happy...
if you have the brain..dosen't mean you will be happy too..

but with them around..just them..it will be my happiest time ever...

please stay by me forever..don't ever leave me alone....

with love,
akemi

denise was trying to sent some photos to me through msn...and....

kaoZ... so big lah...haha...anyway cause both of us are using th latest msn and this is what it will be showing...so funny can~ lol

anyway...don't believe i really graduated? haha... see... the evidents...


lol...crazy stuff we did before my napfa test...lol...wearing dust coat and cardboard square hat with a rod container...lol..

my napfa was a shit...and hey dear dear..i pass all for..silver de leh..just because my damn 2.4km that screw me up..and im going to retake...tmd..lol..

im so happy lah...moove doing one of my model for me..and doing it 2 sets.. most importantly it for FREE!!! haha..cause they own me one...lol...not bad hur....lol...

that means i only have to work on just one of my model..and i do not have a hole in my pocket to look for model maker to do my lighting project...yeh!!!

thats all...

with love,
akemi

see~ im really busy recently....hmmm... namecard~ portfolio...stickers and badge design...and model...its killing me now...all have to rush..and know what its only 18 days left to our grad show...excited and stressed kind of feelings how would people who are not involved be able to feel? lol...

but no matter how... i still have my fav biscuit beside me..love them...oh sweetie~hehe..



with love,
akemi

its valentines' day!! <3 <3

first time with dear dear and made him his favourite pineapple tarts...lol...special wor...hahahaha...

its in heart shaped..pineapple fillings are hard to prepare and hard to form...lol...better appreciate it..humf~ lol...


went ice skating with ting and kenny...lol...so long after i skated...obviously i forgotten how...and i grapped him for the whole session...lol...muscle aching especially the arm that i grapped him...lol... (cus i uses too much strength i guess... Xp) enjoy that day with you my dear~ <3 happy valentine's day!!!

with love,
akemi

meeting postponed till today...and we went for photoshoot for grad book...hmmm...this grad show was really everything by ourselves..our individual picture were taken by my classmates in studio..and now the group photo too...cool isn't it? no professional photographers...but believe me they din a very good job...nice picture taken... =)

when we are going to take picture at the NYP logo.. (the big big logo at the slope of the hill if some of you ever pass by my school) that was tedious....~

trying to squeeze everyone in the "cargo" lift~

our passion for ID that we even carry that with us along... double tedious...

but in exchange we got really cool pictures that not everyone will have~

imagine how big that NYP logo is...


cool picture taking session afterall... enjoy =)

with love,
akemi

I GRADUATED!!!!!

SOOOOOOO happy can~
3 years of diploma study just ended with a good ending which i can say?
hmmmm...thinking back when im trying to get to design school till now...its really fast to end now...but worth it...because i just love designing...

year 1 is when all our brain are so fresh ad new...all the hardwork and even more sleepless nights...hmmm...can see how hardworking we are.... lol... all the paying and paying...all the struggling...

year 2 slack a bit? but still sleepless nights... more graphics works for me? took part in compeition for graphics but hey wait...i thought i love furniture design more??? Xp

year 3 is the final year...the slackest of all...but also the most stress year... worried of not able to graduate? and also fun time for attachment at moove...just love year 3 the most... also got to know the new lec which is my supervisor...SCOTT LEE HAE SEUNG!!! wow~ can say learn quite alot from him..nice lec afterall and funny still thou he is a korean~ lol...

now time to brush up portfolio...namecard...model~ final part of poly life...enjoy it before facing the cruelity in the reality world....arrowing over the heads...lol...

with love,
akemi

its monday!!! tiring day...hmm...sleepless night this few days because...i'm graduating on wednesday!!!! did not sleep at all man..and i went to surprise dear dear..waited for him below his blk in the early morning as he is reservicing~ lol...


really sleepy when in school at the same time its denise big 2 birthday.... happy birthday gal!!!


thats all for monday~

with love,
akemi

its the last day of chinese new year...this year is really becoming quieter.. no festive mood at all...too much things to do i think? lol...

but something different today... first time went to my ex boss and ex lady boss house...hmmm...work for them for few years but yet to go to their so called "warehouse" home that is full of clocks and watches...lol...

before entering their house me and my colleague were still thinking "do we need to push away boxes when we walk in?" or " are we seating on the cartons of boxes?" lol...weird~

but indeed it is stock up with boxes...aiya~ forgotten to take a pic...lol...

anyway....uncle treated us nice food at the old place again...its nice and tend by his friend at sembawang.... yummy.... and went back their house to pre-celebrate his birthday~

his birthday is on 12 feb~ if im not wrong? his first birthday cake~ lol


his son and lady boss=>aunty ~

their so called " daughters" lol... hmmm...from the pic...i really saw how much i had grown...omg...its really too late to wake up and go on diet.... sad~ =(

going back to stress up again... still have moove work to do...hmmm...

updates of my work:
- product renderings for my grad book
- wed final crit= graduating!!!!
- moove career fair booth at jurong int and also suntec = also my first attempt to exhibition design... good news it will confirm be out...check it out man~ but i don't quite like it thou...lol...
career fair @ suntec : 20 - 22 mar
career fair @ jurong int : end of feb?


with love,
akemi